I wasn’t always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way.
Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
Colton didn’t teach me how to live. He didn’t heal the pain. He didn’t make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.
Excerpt from Falling Into You:
It was just a single sob at first, a quick, hysterical inhalation. Then a second. And then I couldn’t stop it. Tears, a flood of them. I felt the sand grow cold and muddy under my face, felt my body shuddering uncontrollably. He didn’t tell me it was okay. He didn’t try to pull me against him or onto his lap. He kept his hand on my shoulder and sat silent next to me.
I knew I wouldn’t be able to stop. I’d let go, and now the river would flow un-dammed.
No. No. I shook my head, clenched my teeth, lifted up and let myself fall down hard, sending a spear of pain spiderwebbing out from my arm. The pain was a drug, and I accepted it greedily. It was a dam, stemming the tide of tears….
If you have ever once dealt with a HUGE tragedy and felt deeply damaged or guilty about it then you will be able to relate to Nell and Colton. Nell is complex, dark, twisty, and turns out to be an overall good person. Colton tempers her darkness and threads hope through out the story and her life. I love how the story volleyed back and forth between Colton and Nell’s perspective. It gave the center tragedy a well rounded view on grief and how it affects more lives than you can ever know. Colton was a perfect twist to the perfect family life that started out in the beginning of the novel. Picture a beautiful vase, gorgeous piece of art, and then drop it. Shattered, splintered pieces everywhere. Now picture someone patient enough to glue the pieces back together one by one. Its not pretty but it can still be used and eventually you dont notice the cracks. This is how the story goes. Perfect. Shattered. Patched up. Healing. It was beautiful and I loved how at the end a tragedy is what brings Colton and Nell CLOSER together. If youre feeling emotional this may jerk some tears out of you; it might do that even if youre not feeling emotional. This is SO much more than boy meets girl girl meets boy they fall in love and live happily ever after.